Hello again world. Today's been better. Yesterday was still a little crap. The day before I wanted to die.
I understand how a series of circumstances might upset me or give me the blues, what I don't get is spending one week on autopilot being a shit mother and a below average human, knowing that at the back of my mind all I'm thinking is the peace of death (not suicide though), then waking up one day and the world is suddenly sort of ok again?
I've been having more of these episodes, they seem to be connected to my headaches and my periods. Has been like this only for a few months now. Maybe I should get some help... I'll see how I feel next month.
So for today, the Black Dog is gone. Now I can get busy and enjoy the season's celebrations: Casi's bday on Friday and Sosi's bday in 3 weeks, then my parents visiting from Italy (again! I know! they just can't stay away from the grandchildren and our beautiful country!) then Christmas. And we are also celebrating the birth of a new family member, but I might write a post all about her :)
|baby R aka Precious Baby|